me and pei at sarah's party.

i should happy right, i know im suppose to be happier person, i promised myself that, and i know promised cherine that too. i know i was a wreck on friday, but cherine said smth that really hit me, it went smth like that

me: i hate myself, really, i don't know why im such a sucker for her. i feel so fucking stupid!

cherine: control your feelings, don't let your feelings control you, eat on this, think through it thoroughly.

i know i gotta really do that from now on, and what? even though i made up my mind, yet still, why do i feel so hollow. why do i cry on the inside?

just got a haircut, and the day went on too fast now im nursing a migrane.

she said you don't know me, you don't even care.